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DRUNKEN BEAST

If for some reason where ever you may be,
Maybe you could forgive me for pillaging, ravaging and destroying your house.
I was lost In my drunken stupidness.
It would be greatly appreciated if you could forgive me.
(To: that new Chinese chick from school who had that house party hoping to make new friends..)

BLANKNESS-NESS

If somehow I could describe what you mean to this shadowed demon
I would, but seems as though if I tried It would never sound right.
(To: Shannon)

COMPRESSED EMOTIONS

While you were out sewing your oats know that I was there,
Alone,
Hungry,
Scared,
Confused,
Angered,
Drunk,
And oh so very stoned!!!!
(To: Dad)

CHRIS vs. GOLIATH

I stand a mere snot nosed kid.
You tower over me as to shadow my existence.
The lashings of not hand but mouth.
That knock me down.
Scars not seen by eyes, that can't heal.
Get up only to fall back to my knees,
But as it seems I'd burst my eardrums
To cast the screams away.
(To: Jim)

STENCH

Stuck in my dungeon.
10x20 darkened hole
Where the stench of old beer,
Scotch and 60 million cigarettes,
Fill the air.

TWO OF THE SAME

I chase after something from afar.
It's a constant struggle like opening that pickle jar.
I know once I get it open and get to see.
What's inside will peer back at me.
I chase after something ever so cautiously.
It's a constant surprise and mystery.
I know once I throw away my doubts.
The dark will subside and my feelings allowed out.
I chase after something I've already caught.
It's a constant learning.. what she's taught.
I know once I drop that feeling of blame.
We can grow we're so much the same.
(To: Angie)

REASON???

I write because I can,
Not cause I want to.

CONFESSION #2

If I could
I would chase butterflies with you.
If I could
I would hold you ever so tightly.
If I could I would make you smile.
If I could
I would make all that is bad go away.
If I could
I would do it today.
If I could
I would make you happy.
If I could
I would be at your doorstep.
If I could
I would drop everything here.
If I could
I would be a millionaire.
If I could
I would whip away that tear.
If I could
I would keep you warm.
If I could
I would hold you dear.
If I could
I know I should
Wish I could.
(To: Angie)

TIME
The leaves they fade away and the seasons they begin to change.
Yet another year has almost come to pass.
They go like months, future to past.
Where does the time go, and why so fast?
And I'm here while your there wondering if you're thinking the same.
(To: Angie)

ONE

The child awakens to his own tears.
The walls of the house have all disappeared.
The air has been poisoned with some kind of gas.
All metals are gone gold ,silver and brass.
He pears over to see the skeleton of his cat.
And there in the corner is his ball and bat.
He screams for his parents but nothing comes back.
The clothes he once wore gone off the rack.
He walks to the outer of what's left of his town.
The wind blows up earth from off the ground.
The view is hard.. but it soon subsides.
As he falls to his knees and starts to cry.
It's all gone not a thing let to stand.
Not animal, not plant, not woman, nor man.
He tilts back his head and starts to yell.
That one left survivor of this apocalyptic hell.
(To: The human race)

IN RESPONSE TO "HOW DO I LOVE THEE"

How do I love thee Let me speal the ways
I love the way you always say "argggg I just smacked my lips again."
I love the way you chase butterflies.
I love the way you pick flowers.
I love the way you laugh.
I love the way you hoard everything.
I love the way you make up lil songs.
I love the way you sing on the phone.
I love the way you love cows.
I love the way you like 2 day old spaghetti.
I love the way you write me all the time.
I love the way you trace bugs paths with high lighters.
I love the way you imitate Richard Lee Hubbard.
I love the way you almost open up to me.
I love the way you described everything in your book bag.
I love the way you draw lil drawings.
I love the way you always put luv angie on every page.
I love the way you explained tom green to me.
I love the way you listen to my shatnat.
I love the way you don't want to grow up.
I love the way you walk so far to talk to me.
I love the way you make me feel inside.
I love the way you always do these :).
I love the way you use ur imagination.
I love the way you love sports.
I love the way you take care of yourself.
I love the way you say "fuck there's a beep."
I love the way you could kick my ass.
I love the way you take no shatnat.
I love the way you see me for me.
I love the way you believe in me.
I love, well I just love you.
(To: Angie....)

THINGS I COULD NEVER SAY

Someday
I hope you realize that I don't hate you.
Though I should
I have let things pass.
Just know that I'm a man now,
Not the child you once knew.
(To: Father)

TRUTH

After writing these few poems
I seem to be a bit upset.
Knowing I'm alone I let it out.
Knowing also if I wasn't,
I'd hold it in.

TO MY FRIEND THE DUCK

My first encounter with the duck.
It was an early morning.
I watched her swim in the pond on the seventeenth hole.
I found myself memorized by the beauty and gracefulness of her,
And at that same time envy of her actions, her freedom.
Throughout the days I would find myself watching her,
Calling her.
Then that break out moment when I almost touched her.
The look in her eyes as if she knew I was a friend,
But no longer.
For today I found my feathered friend next to that pond lifeless.
I found myself upset over that fact.
Though I know she was only a duck she was my duck,
My little piece of envy.
(To: The Duck)

CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES
I remember when I was small grandmother always made things better.
Knowing I was down out would come the cookies to bring a smile to a young, tearful face.
I miss those cookies.
(To: Grandma.. miss you!)

FINI...

I find myself sitting here smoking my last smoke.
Watching it burn away like my life,
But alas I've found happiness.
Like that last smoke my last chance?
Others may bellow at this though it threats me not.
I butt out that last smoke like there words.

REPLY TO: MY POETRY

Those have said (lol) that I hold some special ability.
I can't take credit for something I have no idea developed,
Nor can I control.
I know I have yet to learn the ability to say aloud what I find is easier to write.
Known I may never be able to grasp that knowledge or skill.
For many a relationship have folded due to that lack ness.
So until then or until I'm blessed with that special gift I'll write to express how I feel.
I Hope that I'm understood for who I am,
And for who I wish to become.
(To: Angie)

REPLY TO: YOUR POETRY

I read your words and feel your pain.
At a sudden instance I'm taken back by your words.
You have no idea how they circle my mind.
Words of sweetness and those of grief.
I find myself glancing over them continuously,
As to possibly for an instance hear you speak to me.
Those thoughts from within.
All other disturbances are overtaken.
And at that point I know I've fallen in love with you.
(To: Angie)

BYE LUV

I can't say good-bye for good-bye is forever.
This is only temporary,
So I tell myself.
Instead I kiss you, and walk away.
I hope that soon good-byes won't exist.
(To: Angie)

PROBLEM???

Managing to lift my head high enough.
I see that 30 dollar bottle of scotch has fallen over and poured on the floor.
A tear forms and drifts down my face as my head hits the desk.

LOST & FOUND

"Cast away the one you love If she returns It is meant to be."
I cast my love away though not by choice.
Though it kills me inside to know she's gone the day she returns will take back the pain.
It will take back the months of loneliness.
All I have is the belief that our love will conquer all,
This belief keeps me alive.
(To: Angie)

HIDDEN

If only I could say how much you really mean to me.
Maybe just maybe things would be different.
I can't, I keep it locked inside.
Until that time I'll be but one.
Known someday the words will be heard,
If time doesn't overlap first.
(To: Angie)

BLANK

I stand in the rain.
It's cold, dark.
Why do I stand here?
I can't move, paralyzed.
I see nothing but constant rain drops,
As they pour down my blank face.
Staring forward into the night.
Thinking of nothing.
It may be cold, dark and wet,
But it's peaceful, and I smile.

FRIEND

My friend help me out.
Seems as though I've staggered of my path.
And the act of getting back on does not seem to entice me.
My friend give me a push.
Seems as I don't care or want to.
Friend tell me all is going to work out in the end.
Even if it's a lie It's all I need to hear.
(To: Shannon)

THE JOURNEY

Take flight with me.
As we look down on what is,
Sore above what was and
Land on what will always be.

GOING NOWHERE

Resemblance of a rock,
Weathered by time.
Changed by wind and rain,
As fragments lay around.
Movement non existent,
Until cast away.

RE-OCCURRING DREAM

Standing on a cliff looking down on serenity.
All is peaceful.
With one movement I jump,
Only to awaken alive.

YOUR NOT ALONE

Pain is hard it hurts like hell.
Only you can describe it, only you can tell.
Tears flow like rivers your heart has been torn.
You hit rock bottom and wish you'd never been born.
Searching for answers, but no one will speak.
You thrash scream and start to freak.
It's only you that can overcome.
Get back to the days of having fun.
Just know that you're not alone.
Your friend is here just pick up the phone.
(To: Shannon)

YOUR GAME

Like a deck of cards when you're bored and lonely you play with me.
Well it stops here!
You'll mind fuck me no longer.
When you get back from your trip of childish fantasies I hope you realize what you had.
Maybe you'll see that I was waiting for you,
But now the waiting is through.
(To: Tara)

TOMORROW??

If tomorrow never comes
What hope is there for the new day?
Inspiration for waking up,
Passion to be.
If tomorrow never comes
What possible words could I say?
Description of my love for her
That I know I must tell.
If tomorrow never comes
How could I finish today?
Knowing it's all gonna end,
Dying alone.
If tomorrow never comes
Who will say fair well?
As I see my last day fade away,
Good-bye to all.

KISS GOOD-BYE

I had known you had to go
Though I chose to ignore the thought.
As now that you are,
It seems as a part of my own
Has left myself as well.
(To: Angie)

MERE MAN

Just as we both say our peace fait throws an inside curve.
I laugh at them, these powers that may be.
This time you won't shatter my dreams like you've done in the past.
All those past experiences have only made me stronger.
It has given me the courage to resist your outcomes.
Rest knowing that I stand here a mere man, ready to fight for what I love.
(To: Angie)

NEW BEGINNING

It kills me inside knowing that had I said what I felt when I felt it,
This would be hi instead of good-bye.
(To: Angie)

RICHES

The doors of destiny open.
Afraid of what awaits on the other side.
Every door I open enters to blackness.
I press on knowing somewhere awaits the entrance to my dreams.
As I exit from my single dimension restraints to a world of unexplainable, mystical , fantasies.
Where this pain I feel will be curbed by happiness.
Where all I search for, will be found.
Where light will follow my shadows, as to drown out the blackness.
Where all will hear my cries and care.
Where I'll be seen for who I am.
With these fundamentals I search on knowing that this door to my destiny must exist.

HOPE

I awoke screaming your name as if for some reason you had returned.
Rolling over to check I see only the imprint of where you use to lay.
(To: Teri)

SELF DEMISE

I'm entangled in the web of time.
I Struggle to break free but this only contributes to my demise.
Motions turns motionless.
I'm frozen here with no mean of escape.
I slowly fade away.

MIRROR

Will the day ever come?
I'll awaken, take that daily trip to my reflection
And be pleased with what stares back.

5X8

Your picture sits on my desk.
A constant reminder of a mistake that can't be corrected.
It stares at me, looks through me.
Possibly this constitutes the loss or pain I caused for that night.

CHILDISH DREAMS

Remember when we use to sit and imagine our lives together.
Name the children, describe the house.
Oh the perfect life.
Funny how that perfection, was so imperfect.
(For: Teri)

INSIDE ME

Inside of me lives something that has been imprisoned.
Possibly never to be released from this cage.
Maybe if I try hard enough I'll forget what it's like to love
Then this pain of loss will disperse my presence.
Maybe if I discard all my feelings I'll be able to go on.
Live cold without emotion.
No care of others or of what they conceive of me.
Seems as when I care I end up the worlds punching bag.
Been bruised and cut, I can bleed no more.
Just leave me alone unless you poses the power to free me.
(To: me From: me)

PATIENCE

I sit on the bench in the park waiting for you.
The hours pass by and the sun fades to black.
I sit waiting, wondering who it is your with.
(To: Tara)

WALL

You speak through the wall.
I see not your face, but I know your voice.
Sense the cracking of emotion in your speech.
Wanting to hold you kiss you, but can't.
This wall stands between us.

CONSTELLATION

Though it's dark and I'm alone a faint call beckons from above.
For as I look into the heavens stars appear to outline your face.
As to look over me and protect me from the darkness.
(To: Shannon)

HE WHO LAUGHS ... LAUGHS LAST ...

How does it feel to know that you've killed me?
You've striped me of everything only to walk away laughing.
Well laugh on cause I know someday somewhere it will happen to you
And when it does that laughter you hear will be me!!!
(To: Teri)

OPEN HAND

I know the pain you feel for I've been dealt the same hand.
Not knowing what happened or how it came to be.
Know it's not your fault.
Know someone cares.
Know I'm always here in your time of need.
(To: Angie)

CASINO LOVE

Grab the dice darling throw them down.
Odds we go on, Evens we don't.
Right now that's how I feel.
And these odds are stacked against me.
(To: Tara)

REBUTTAL

Now that this news has filtered my way
I have but one thing to say
SLUT!!!

WANTED WORDS

Is it that hard to say it?
Three words that flow, I love you.
Maybe you don't or can't.
Well know I can.
Now I'm waiting to hear them from you.

TORCHED

Don't you dare walk away.
Look at me! See these fucking tears they flow for you.
Do you even give a shit?
Okay throw what we had, what could be away like the trash.
Like a light match, left to burn all it touches.
Where all that rests is ashes left to blow in the wind like our relationship.
(To: Teri)

ZOMBIE

My emotions have been drained.
Like a leaky faucet with no way to stop it.
They slowly exit, collecting aside.
Left to be a zombie, cold and breathless.
Caring not of others for they care not of me.

ASSUMPTION

Someday we'll realize that what was is gone,
though we knew all along.
(To: Teri)

THE AWAKENING

Could it be that I'm in a coma?
Someday I'll awaken from this night mere
Only to realize that what I'm awakening to
Is more depressing than this dream.

SWEETY

Your voice rushes through me as you fill this void that is my life.
With you it would be like a dream, without a night mere.
Though I speak not aloud how I feel, words could not describe what's inside.
Just fall asleep beside me, hold me.
Help me emerge from these fears from all these years.
(To: Tara)

ONE NIGHT

The smell of the storm.
Cover my body from the rain as I will for you.
Fall back with me into this night of passion.
All will be forgotten as lust takes over.
For I know when I awake, you'll be gone.
(To: Tara)

BULL SHIT

Look at me not through me.
For who I am.
Do I scare you?
Look around me, at what's left of my soul for even it runs from me.
Walk away as most do.
How can others understand what I have yet to.

BLACK WIDOW

My heart has been stretched, pulled then broken.
Pieces of which lay strung around in your domain.
Release me from your web and give back what you took.
My dignity, my life.
Suck out what's left of me, for I have no more to give.
Throw me away and pick out your next victim.
Death as it seems is pleasure compared to being with you!
(To: Teri)

REALITY

I slump around with no cares.
Is it real these thoughts, these words that are spoken!
A good front for all I declare no one suspects a thing.
Fix it they say, I try but it gets worse.
I have no passion, no drive to stay.
I keep it in, these thoughts within.
It's always on my mind as I fall deeper in, away to stay.
In my world of existent problems I'm saved.

THE THOUGHTS

In a room sitting, thinking about my life.
I've got all I need but some thing is missing.
I think, ponder, still I'm left to wonder.
It gets me mad, then sad, what could it be?
Is this how life is left to be?
Endless, shameful, depression.
Slowly I slip away deeper into this abys.
I'm crazy, a nut, what the fuck?
I draw a blank.
In a room, thinking suicide.

HAPPINESS

It comes and goes like the wind.
Strong one day, gone the next.
When it's around the feeling is unexplainable.
When it's gone there are too many words to describe it.
I sometimes wish I could bottle it up so I could absorb it on the bad days.
It's a rush, a natural high.
It can't be bought nor taught.
Only to be given or received.
Often unappreciated and overlooked.
I've been touched with happiness although not told.
I keep it inside, soon to be released.
Happiness defined by me I would say, is a dream about to come true.
(To: Kalie)

THE HAUNTING

The parasite that attaches itself to you, never to leave.
You made some mistakes earlier in your life and it's there to remind you of them.
It haunts you when you're alone, when you're down.
Come on just one more time, for old times sake.
The voice of with drawl that overpowers you.
It clinches in your stomach, grips you.
The sweats set in, the shakes.
You give into temptation and it hits you like a brick.
All the troubles of the outside world have disappeared, you've entered it's world.
It plays with your mind, twists your emotions.
Come and play, you're here to stay.
You come down from it's playground.
You rip at yourself for giving in, letting it win.
You'll be back you can't get rid of me I'm in your brain.
Alas you've let the haunt win yet again.

THOUGHTLESS WORDS

The words are spoken, truth or lies?
They flow like water out of a tap drip, drip, drip.
Often hurt, yelled out in anger.
They slip away not to be taken back.
As they flow into the air.
Riding along till they reach there destination.
Absorbed.

UNFORSAKEN FAIT

Black horse, black cloak.
Lone rider of the night sky.
Words are never spoken.
The taker of life with the touch of death.
Searching for the next to fall no compromising, no guilt.
He waits by my window hoping I'll fall asleep.

UNWANTED

Wanderer of the earth with no place to call home.
Can't speak the words needed to be spoken.
No one is there to listen, no one cares.
Life crumbles down and the curtain drops.
Yet another entry, this book is now full.
Seeker of attention, seeker of love.
Walks the walk of uncertainty, left to stand alone.
He walks threw the path of life alone.
Judgement, his sentence to be an outcast among his peers.
Never feel the love again only the endless shame, the endless blame.

PATHWAYS OF LIFE

On the path to nowhere, This past haunts me.
Wait for my calling, it's not fair.
Look for answers, they return back few.
On the path to endless shame, walking backwards down a one way street.
Wait for my calling, am I too blame?
Just wanna get back on my feet.
On the path to temptation, This endless search of happiness.
Waiting for my calling, constant frustration.
Could she be out there, or is it search for less.
On the path to the light, like a dove from above she enters.
Makes me laugh the forgotten laugh, what a sight.
Talking about things nobody knows.
On the path to understanding, like two of the same.
Uncontrollable thoughts which satisfy.
Without the shame, no one's to blame.
On the path to closure, all paths end up coming together.
Know but one thing that's for sure,
I love her.
(To: Kalie)

SLAP IN THE FACE

The truth is often overlooked, or does it not exist?
Absorbed by the mind but stowed away.
Can come as happy news but often as misery.
For the truth I seek and hope to find.
These thoughts go flying through my mind.
They often toy with my emotions.
One says one and one says another.
Like old ladies, is this worth the bother?
For when you deny yourself the pleasure of knowing you're lost.
In the end is the truth gratifying at all?

OPEN YOUR EYES

You think you know someone, known them all your life.
Like a switch another side reveals itself.
Like self destruction, unspeakable hurt, pain.
Feel all alone, emptiness.
Who cares? they speak not.
Help me I'm falling away.
They stand together, I'm alone.
Like a two way mirror I see them but I can't go through.
They laugh and talk, no one hears me.
Where I am alone in this box, exits don't exist.

DARKNESS

Can't get out so I fall further in.
Calls for help that never reach.
Alone in my prison to be left.
They all say the same to my face, lies.
To lose something you can't put a price on.
Friendships now gone, become discarded memories.
The box gets smaller squeezing out any life that remains.
Can't get it out so I burry it inside.
For to let it out would be a sign that I would have to deal with it.
The darkness fades and the light crests.
It's morning, I've survived one more night.
When the darkness appears the box shall return.

DREAMS

Slumber away to a place no one can see.
Your mind playing tricks?
For the thin line has been crossed between reality and fiction, but which is real?
Dreamland can be partially controlled where as you're life can't.
Could these be premonitions of your future?
Who knows, who cares for you're stuck on the freeway of life.
It controls your destiny, your actions.
Only in dreams can you be who you want to be!

HELP!!!

The problems roll on, endlessly, they seem to never end!!!
Balling up till you explode.
Who am I?
What the fuck am I doing?
The timeless question that is never answered!
When you're happy the problems seem to bounce off,
But when you're down they seem to stick in you.
Can you buy happiness?
For if you could it would always be sold out.
The problems roll on.
The call for help is bellowed.
No one is around to answer the call.

WHY

When you're single you hope for someone to come along.
When you're taken you hope you could be single.
When you're poor you hope to be rich.
When you're rich you hope to be richer.
Why is it we're never satisfied with what we have?

UN FORE TOLD FATE

Enters in like a lamb exits like a lion.
This thing I feel can't be for real.
For it seems only darkness follows me.
Then she enters as to vanquish me.
For how I feel for her could not possibly be described in mere words.
A character of unimaginable caring.
The calmness of her voice calms the savagest of beasts.
Tis my quest to make her happy for when she is her glow lightens the darkness.
Is it a sacrifice to wait?
I think not.
The best things in life come to those who have patience.
She's in my heart, lives in my dreams.
Though so far away distance is not a measurement of love.
For love is a chain and to each day another link is added this chain stretches from here to there.
Soon it will reach it's destination as two shall join to make one,
To live out the destiny that has be chosen.
Words to be remembered love conquers all.
In the end the darkness shall fall and the light will rise.
A world of unquestionable memories shall be made to sit back and reminisce.
For memories are the gateway to the dreams of reality.
(To: Kalie)

¿THE END¿
Words from one sentence and your world turns black.
THE END

BLIND

Life is like a glass of water, everyday a drop is taken away.
You don't notice till the glass is half empty,
And you spend the rest of your life trying to fill it up again.
Wasting the rest of your life away until at last the glass is empty,
And realize you're left with nothing.
(To: Sarah)

M MßLë§ WORLD

Everything is a blur.
Sounds are distorted.
Problems they fade away,
until the next morning.

ASK YOURSELF

So you think your in love.
Everything is going good,
feeling like never before.
Shit like this don't last
So enjoy it while it lasts.
All good things come to an end.

BRAIN CHECK

Look out my window.
Gaze upon the world.
She's out there somewhere!!
Close the curtains wake up, you loser!!

ILLUSION

Feel like a hamster on a wheel.
I see what I want,
But can't get to it.

ADDICTION

In a dark room with only the light from this monitor.
Sitting typing away, time seems to fly's by.
I know I'm wasting my life, but it draws me in.

GIFT FROM ABOVE

She brings a smile to my face that could not possibly be lost.
Like a dream, but it's real.
Things I once forgot, but now I feel.
She's a gift from above, an angel.
(To: Kalie)

?????

Like a puppet they pull my strings.
I want to do one thing, they make me do another.
Someday these strings will snap and I'll be left to fend for myself.
Freedom or denial.

D-DAY

How does it feel to know you're going to die?
Nothing you can do judgement day is here.
You don't know how or what time, but it's today.
So crap it up, suck it in, your time is up.
*Bang* your just another white silhouette on the street.

LOVE

Love, another four letter word greatly spoken out of content.

LOST

It seems as it's lost, gone.
The little things.
Senseless talks, the midnight walks.
The warm body next to you that you know will be there in the morning.
Laughing over nothing.
The cuddling, the soft good-bye kiss.
The little insignificant things that get passed bye, but then it ends.
As you sit alone in a dark room you realize those little things meant so very much.
Of all the memories those are the ones you treasure.
It seems they're all to easy to forget until there gone and your left lost.
(To: Teri)

TILL THE END

Welcome to the world of shame,
fingers point and screams of blame.
The world has been striped of all that is love,
been warn and torn like an old leather glove.
Cast away forgotten by all, he stands up against the wall.
Rocks pound his body and he starts to bleed, as the throwers of evil have finished there deed.
He looks at them and wonders why, for they used to love him now they want him to die.
He's done nothing wrong love is all he seeks, but in this world that seems quite bleak.
He falls to his knees and bellows out a scream, as the blood from his body flows out like cream.
He left laying on the pavement his time now has passed, as another unloved soul has been given up so fast.

TODAY

Today I awoke and knew it was my time to die, don't ask me questions, don't ask me why.
Seems all my life I've always known, so I do not fear, I know where I'm going.
To a place where there is no hate, time does not exist, there is no date.
The sun always shines unless you want rain, everyone is treated equal they're all the same.
Just one more thing before I leave, this place exists only if you believe.

THE VOID

I often sit and start to dream goals I've accomplished and ones not yet achieved.
For all that I have I miss just one, someone to great me when I get home.

BOX OF DREAMS

A man walks up to town threw the mist, clutches a box tightly within his fists.
He walks ahead with a dead stare, his clothes are torn, his feet bare.
The town folk coral to see what's the matter, as the questions and whispers start to scatter.
The man walk's by and crowd begins to follow, they walk right behind in his shadow.
He steps around and faces the crowd, closes his eyes and screams out loud.
"What's in the box, your all in suspense", the crowd grows near and every ones tense.
The man looks up and then drops, there next to him lay the box.
A voice from the crowd says this man is dead, as others hmm and haw then shake there heads.
They all walk over to peer inside, just then a woman started to cry.
Like a chain reaction a full out ball, for in the box was nothing at all.

SORRY

Does sorry really mean a thing?
Will it constitute that one night fling?
Can it help to hide the shame?
It really can't cause you're to blame.

S/W/M

On a search for someone to find, for all I have is her picture in my mind.
Lips so soft and hair of gold, embrace me keep me warm from the cold.
Whisper to me what I want to hear, keep me close take away the fear.

THY HOMELAND

The land it roll, the grass so green.
But aye back in the day twas not so kean.
For the brits they come and takith away.
Turned my brother and sisters into there slaves.
For some came ahead and said this has to end.
As family became one and all became friends.
The clans was there calling and killing they did.
For all they wanted was there land back for there kids.
As the battles raged on the brits became worried.
For they had not know that Scotts could give such a query.
As the sun crested the hills the pipes would play.
As the clans lay there heads ready for battle the next day.
The sun it raised as both faced each other in thy hills.
For the fight was fierce and the blood it did spill.
And out from this the brits they did flee.
As from this day forth Scotland would be free.

DEEP WOUNDS

The knife of temptation cuts threw your skin,
As the pain and sorrow spills from within.
The guilt follows you from out of the shadows,
Something you can't outrun, it always follows.
Kept deep in your head, the voices of truth.
Been there since your youth.
When all is said your left to blame,
As the voices inside drive you insane.

PLEA

Forgive me for what I've done.
Forgive me not for what's yet to come.

EYES OF FIRE

Look into my eyes what do you see?
Stare, glare.
Ask yourself could it be?
The tears are real.
Look deep into my eyes.
Ask yourself don't deny.
Get memorized, fall in.
Look into my eyes.
Is it what you see your reflection?
Or is it what I want you to see?
Look into my eyes.
Don't be afraid for I won't hurt you like the others.
I care only for you.
Look into my eyes as I stare into yours.
As we both fall away to another place where time stands still.
Feelings can be expressed for what they are for I fear not the outcome.
Take my hand jump aboard this journey of unconditional expectations.
Speak the words both want to say but are afraid to.
Look into my eyes see the emptiness that can only be filled by your presence.
Look into my eyes see the fear of ongoing life without you.
Look into my eyes see the happiness of dreams of the past.
Look into my eyes see the future of what could be.
Look into my eyes as I look into yours wishing that you could, would.
(To: Tara)

BABY...

Baby I sit here, thinking of you.
Wondering if you're thinking of me to.
Don't know what happened, what went wrong.
As I turn on the radio they play our song,
But it means nothing without you here.
This thought fills me with fear.
Seems we both did wrong,
Now I sit here trying to be strong.
Can't be done as I miss you so,
Sitting in the dark as the tears flow.
Got your picture burned in my mind,
As I know there's no other to find.
Baby lets talk this through.
Get back to me and you.
The way it was and should be.
Just hear me out before you run from me.
Cause I'm hoping this thing we have you miss it you,
As I sit here baby thinking of you
(To: Teri)

THE FLIGHT OF FRIENDS

Friends come and go.
Like dandelion seeds as the wind blows,
They flow threw the air till they fall.
They only stay for a while.
Others are like trees rooting themselves by your side.
Staying with you forever these are hard to find.
When you should happen to find,
Take for granted not.
For trees do seed,
And in the end you could be left standing next to a twig.

REALIZE

You say you love how can that be?
For does he know about me?
What is it you see when you close your eyes?
A vision blurred by both?
Place that vision aside.
Feel this pain.
Run your hand across feel these tears.
These tears that shed for you.
Hear my heart that beats and calls your name.
For I love you,
Even though you don't deserve it.
So as you read this shed no tears for me,
For I seek no pity only love.
A love of which I can't have.
(To: Tara)

JOINED

Take my hand fear not the outcome.
For if the steps are not taken who's to know.
Of what or should, ask not questions.
Questions both you nor I can answer.
Out of lust, possible passion?
Who's to know, if we don't attempt to follow what both hearts cry for.
Deny not, shed away this skin of uncertainty.
All will be, come with me.
(To: Tara)

COULD?????

Could it be what you look for may never be found?
Searching the endless search.
That only brings you back to where you started,
Alone.
Could it be that what you had was taken for granted?
Asking the unanswered question.
That only brings you back to where you started,
Depressed.
Could it be that what you dream is real?
Signs of things yet to come.
That only brings you back to where you started,
Reality.
Could it be that what your head tells you is true?
Thoughts of blurred future.
That only brings you back to where you started,
Scared.
Could it be that what you search is in front of you?
Open your blinded eyes.
That only brings you back to where you started,
Hope.
Could it be that the questions asked have been answered?
Listen to your heart.
That only brings you back to where you started,
Confused.
Could it be that dreams are a sign of what should be?
Use your head.
That only brings you back to where you started,
Excited.
Could it be that what your head tells you is the truth?
Ignore negativity.
That only brings you back to where you started years ago,
Confident.
Could it be that this whole thing has a meaning?
Read the lines.
That only brings you back to where you started,
Searching the endless search!
Asking questions that will never be answered!
Dreaming things you wish were true!
Ignoring your instincts!
Avoiding something that could be real!