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REALIZATION
Walking down the street, I notice while looking downward
Your face fills every crack that inflicts the concrete
Looking away, brings me peace
But alas, I can't go on, walking blind
Though all along I had been
I have to go on, I must
Do you even know? or care to?
Pathetic realizations, and stupidness has brought me here
Where this road, filled with potholes never ends
My shoes have all but worn away
So I fall, and cry....
Looking onward to the cracks, in that street
That still beir her face (To: Teri)
IF.....
If you held me, like before
Would you tell me of my failures?
Or simply overlook them
Better yet, throw them in my face and laugh
I'm quite sure you would laugh
Cause I know I would (To: Teri)
WEEDS
I remember a time, when I would have taken down my tent
Moved over 10 feet and set it back up
It seems as now, every site I reach is full
Now I'm searching the fields
Only to find that they've all been taken over by weeds
YOU ARE TO ME
You are to me..............
That cold frosty beer on that 120 degree day
That beautiful sunset near the end of May
That feeling of accomplishment after work is done
The laughter of the guys when were slacking off having fun
That shooting star, slicing it's way through the sky
The pain I feel when I say good-bye
The inspiration behind what I write
The last thing that crosses my mind at night
The enchantress of my soul
The sugar crisp in my cookie monster bowl
The taste of that hot spicy chicken wing
To me hun.. you are everything (To: Angie)
CLOSE
Hold me close... close like something dangerous
With knowing if I'm dropped something will happen
Hold me close... as close as that life threatening scenario
For if a wrong move is made certain repercussions will unfold
Hold me close... as to shelter me from the arctic chill
Keeping the heat of us both centered around us
Hold me close... close to your heart
As to let me feed off your emotions to replenish mine
Hold me close... never let me go
Hold me close... till time comes to that ending
When only that situation brings us apart
Hold me close... (To: Angie)
THE RETURN
On that, October 14th.
I held in my hand, what I had dreaded.
The words put on a simple piece of paper.
Words that stuck into me like little daggers.
A type of literary acupuncture.
I wonder who it is that has taken host to your soul.
On that, October 14th.
I recoiled my feelings.
Rethinking every little emotion.
Trying to fathom an explanation.
Questioning every action I undertook.
I wonder what it is I did.
On that, October 14th.
The wall of security that had been, collapsed.
The vines grew overnight entrapping me.
That cold winter chill returned.
Darkness overshadowed the light.
I wonder when my eyes will unbind the truth. (To: Angie)
EXTINCT
Can someone sympathize?
The downfalls of my life,
Ever swirling me into this cyclonic hole.
My body crushing under the pressure.
Socialist interpretations of my supposed behavior.
And there you stand, looking down on me.
As too say, "I told you so".
It burns my ass that you were right.
You always looked over me, I didn't fit that portrait you kept in your head.
Though you tried to mold me to that image.
I broke away from the brainwashing ways.
Alone, here writing, thinking, wishing that you would call.
So I could put on the front of this imaginary life I portray.
When in fact I'm close to extinction.... (To: Teri)
LOST AT SEA
You speak to me, in twisted tongue.
Possibly pointing out a direction,
Or maybe avoiding the destination.
Is it rational to let my mind wonder?
This boat travels into rough waters.
Without the power to overcome them.
I'll just float along.....
Until I reach land, and make it my home.
SMILE
I speak to you, in black inked characters.
Telling of my passing time, in lonesome lines.
Followed by numerous exclamation marks.
As to define my emotion!!!!!!!!!
All along thinking if when you gaze upon it, will you smile?
Can you smile?
It's been so long love, all so long.
With all said, a soft kiss seals the package.
Did you smile?
(To: Angie)
THE PLAN
You overtook my rational thoughts.
Pushing aside my former views, my former morals.
Awakening me to an alter world.
One of which had never been seen.
Not by me, not by you.
A world created in whole by our thoughts.
Your stronger than I.
Pushing me to strip away the blurred colors, my eyes use to intrepid.
Bringing them to focus on the plan that we mapped out.
We tuck the plans aside, for that rainy day.
(To: Angie)
GO/STOP
I advance you yell "stop..."
I retreat ... "Go" you shout ..
I run back..
Up from behind your back.. A stop sign appears..
In frustration I turn...
Go, no stop.. yes go.. god stop.. please go.. no we can't stop...
From behind my back.. A yellow light..
Which I hold in front of you..
Your choice.. go or stop... (To: The Shaded)
FALL
The leaves they fall,
Ever so slowly as captured by thousands of eyes.
Twirling down, abruptly hitting the ground.
Without a sound.
The trees stand bare.
Like naked sticks stuck in the ground.
Swaying back and forth with the cool fall chill.
TICK... TICK.. TICK.. TICK..........
The ticking of the clock.
It's sound grows loud,
As too tell me of the time I'm wasting away.
Memorized by it's accuracy.
Taunted by it's purity.
Knowing I can't turn it back without certain consequences.
Knowing also that I live with them whether I tamper with it or not.
DRUNKEN RAMBLING
I tell you of the story.
That none were aware of...
Like a child your ears hang on my every word...
Afterwards you say "I had no idea"
"That was the point" I reply.
It was all a test..... one that backfired in my face....
It's almost to the point of humor now....
But it makes me think.... and also hate
That I'm always right....
Knowing that I'm down..
You order me another drink...
And say it will all work out......
I wish I could believe you.
(To: Glenn)
BYE
I tell you I'm leaving.
You try to hide your disappointment.
But I see.
I just hope you understand my reasons.
Though maybe you have all along.
(To: Mom)
THE LIGHT
I'd like to say my doubts die.
But they live.
With you so far away.
With limited communication.
It's hard to make sense anymore.
Of why's and how's..
Where once there was, now are maybe's.
I still hold on to your words, grasping them ever so tightly.
Thinking that this action will overpower my doubts.
Though the light that was is fading away.
Almost to the point where I can't see it.
Tell me of how I can recapture what I know is destiny..
That being with you.....
Speak of the days not of the weeks..
That day we both hope will be...
Where that light that binds us together..
Will shine above us for ever....
(To: Angie)
DO WHAT WE WANT
As a race.. of humans.
We dominate.
Doing as we wish,
To whom, when we want.
After the fact.
Wondering why.
FIRE AND ICE
Burning to the cooling.
Of what we are.
The warmth of the fire.
The cold of ice.
The descriptiveness of the actions.
Never taken place in a harsh reality.
But in the land of imagination.
Happening every time I close my eyes.
(To: Angie)
P.O.L
You tell a familiar face.
That your presence has drenched my territory,
For a short time.
Like always you ask me to keep in touch.
Though you're well aware of what you're planning.
My walls dawn the plaques of your thoughts.
The manipulative schemes that you've manifested.
For reasons I can't visualize,
Why you continue this game.
The game that I folded to.
I approach you ...
White flag waving in the wind above me,
Announcing my surrender...
Knowing that you'll hold me prisoner,
In the here-after..... (To: Tara)
THE EXAGGERATED
To this day.
I question the screenplay.
Was I the main character?
The character of a torturous mini series.
Things seemed a bit distorted.
The possible lie that rolled up into an avalanche.
With me standing on the hillside with no where to run.
As I'm strung along,
If it's so..
You deserve an award.
I was part of something I never signed.
You reaped the credits.
If it's ever published send me a copy...
Signed simply .... To the sucker....
(To: Chrissi/Kalie/Steph)
RUN
Run to the unknown.
With blinded feelings.
Caressing what is surely not there.
Only to run back.
Emptier than before.
SINK
The sink is full of the waste.
Yesterdays ongoing push,
To live.
It gets sad when you weight the options
on a daily basis.
Discarding the ideals in the sink.
Watching them swirl downward,
Till there gone
ROMEO & JULIET
The poison I drink.
I see you there... frozen. (or so it seemed)
Lifeless as I was to believe.
To go on without you is no possibility.
So I take what has been
to be with you
But as I drift away... drawn cold
you awake,
Turn to me... and walk away (To: Teri)
DARK CLAD SUIT
Perhaps in the morrow.
A glimpse of euphoria will emerge.
So I can discard this dark suit I beir.
WISE WORDS
It's the fear of not knowing...
That makes life exciting, and worth living!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
Another year tacked on to a dwindling calendar.
You look back at what has become.
Mistakes you made, and ones you should have.
Discoveries that taunt your imagination.
Journeys of down the street, that drag you along.
Love versus unloved?
The suitcase of pain.
Worries of the future, dreads from the past.
It took a long time to get here, and yet it seems like yesterday.
DEAREST
You worry about what is.
Scolding yourself for the diary you keep.
Falling back on the stereotypes that haunt the socialists.
Don't fall for there slogans.
They speak nice, but is it all it's meant?
Don't beat yourself down.
For what you seek, it's out there.
Don't be confused, jaded from what's true.
Spread open the curtains that cover your eyes.
And there you shall receive....
True happiness.
(To: Shannon)
NATURES SUMMONS
The cries of the night, beads sweat upon your skin...
The rays from the sun, melt the cold from within...
The kiss of the wind, blows the time from the day...
The wet of the rain, wash's the vanity away...
The twinkle of a star, keeps your thoughts in my heart...
The glow of the moon, rips the doubts all apart
The vastness of the universe, makes me feel rather small...
The yell from my heart, can you hear my call?
GUARDIAN ANGEL
Angel,
From abroad.
Save me from the disguised.
Read my expectations.
Deliver this lost package,
That is my heart
Shelter me from what will become,
And of nightmares that tomorrow brings.
Encompass my soul,
Purify my doubts,
Keep me undivided.
Force me to see that flicker of hope,
That burns for her.
Like a torch, it casts light.
Leading my being to hers.
Keep me on the passageway to fulfillment.
Rectify my misinterpretations, of Love.
For I'm new to this experience,
But am eggar to comprehend.
Angel of mine, I ask only for what I believe is mine.
An eternity of serenity.
RACE OF TIME
Are you dazed by what you disbelieve?
Do the questions turn you backwards?
Make you reexamine prior conceptions?
Maybe your stubborn from your old ways?
Just maybe their views make sense?
Or better yet overpower yours?
Past understandings die over time,
And are reborn to fashionable ones.
Step out of your rocking chair and breath in the new day.
Your being eclipsed by the norm.
While others run ahead of you..
You're left behind eating their dust.
CONFESSION #3
While your there...
I remain here...
Weary of the outcome...
Wondering if what you said is true...
Or another shattered dream,
To add to the ongoing collection... (To: Angie)
RUNNING MAN
If I scream to a silenced world...
Who will return my bellows?
If they call to a deaf ear...
How will I respond?
If I turn and run,
Will she understand my cowardness?
Or will she stop me in half sprint,
From destroying my life?
FAIRY TALE
If I was witness to your tears...
I'm convinced...
It would kill me...
If I could take your pain...
I'm confident...
You would smile...
If I could walk up behind you...
I'm certain...
That you'd never lose me...
If I wrapped my name around yours
I'm sure
We'd live happily ever after
The End.......
(To: Angie)
SOMEDAY......
Hopefully someday...
When I clear my eyes from lasts sleep...
I'll turn over...
Startled by your presence
Hopefully someday....
When I leave for the day...
I'll reach for the door...
Only to find your hand...
Hopefully someday....
When I phone home....
You'll answer...
Saying "bring home some bread"
Hopefully someday...
When I'm done my duties...
I'll rush home...
To find you in my T-shirt...
Hopefully someday...
Instead of writing these...
I'll turn too you..
And whisper the words in your ear....
Hopefully someday...
On those steps..
You'll speak of "I do's"
As we walk out as one
(To: Angie)
TUTOR
I like how, you always know what to do, what to say..
Maybe someday.. you'll tell me how you know me so well..
And teach me about myself....
(To: Shannon)
BROKEN GLASS
My heart is encased in glass..
Like a window it opens and closes..
Painted shut by others..
Few have open'd , they don't posess the power..
Though they try.. throw'n all they can,
But still it stands as a gate...
Inside my heart cries for release..
With one motion...
You smash the glass and steal my heart..
Place'n it with yours...
As a trophy, of your triumphant victory...
(To: Angie)
LOVE
I'm taken over by there words.. the stories..
Of things that have possibly happened to me but..
That I don't understand...
I'm taken over by the experiences of those before me..
Wondering if they'll ever grace my presence...
If maybe somehow they'll inflict my soul...
I'm taken over by love...
Though I don't understand...
And I wonder why, when I was learn'n about chemical compositions...
They never mentioned love....
THE SONG
They play that song we sang...
And just for a second it's like you never left...
But the song ends and reality returns.....
So I buy that cd.. so that I can return to you..
Whenever I wish... (To: Angie)
CALL ME
Remember when you said... I'm always here...
That you'd always help me out...
You'd never change...
Well what happen'd to those promises?
Or were they merely words to cover my doubts of you?
No worries... I don't need you anymore..
There was a time, god, a time when I would have droped everything for you.
No worries... everything changes... (To: Tara)
MUMBLED
"If you keep hanging around with them you'll become nothing".
Words you once said... after class...
As I darted out of the room...
Maybe you said it out of spite, cause I always call'd you a fag...
Or it could have been a whisper under your breath, that happen'd to be too loud...
Either, or you were right....
And it haunts me....
(To: My 9th grade french teacher)
BAGGAGE
Take a picture now... for I'm on my way...
Though you don't believe me...
Cherish what time you have now...
My bags are pack'd...
You may not want to admit it.. but it's time...
Steps ..... and I close the door....
(To: My parents)
STUPIDITY
The graves become full... as more die..
And for what? or whom?
Take away all treasures.. all land..
What would you fude about now?
I'm sure you'd find something...
As you die for there cause,
He sits on his leather couch.. smoke'n a cigar roll'd by your hands...
STORY TIME
There was a time when life was easier....
Though they say it was harder...
I'm sure when I'm old I'll say the same...
Tell'n stories of my past.. that will seem tame compared to those...
Told by my grandchildren....
FRONT PAGE
I cut open myself..
To mark the path to my heart...
The stained carpet where I lay...
Is cold and surrounded by those who ask Y?
They take pictures, and cast headlines....
Though they'll never know the truth...
They make up what others want to hear.....
25
My search has been 25 years...
Just as I'm about to give up..
You appear to me... and steal all of me..
I hand you all I have for you to posess..
Taken back by the hows...
Unable to understand ..
It happen'd so fast.. yet so slow...
It was you in my dreams all this time...
Though I couldn't put to your face...
Your words say it all...
Those dreams stick in my head like yesterdays wonders...
It was you that haunted my imagination....
It was you....
(To: Angie)
I WRITE
I write in hope to capture attention..
In hope that someone out there feels like I..
That I'm no alone, in this world..
Possibly someone understands me?
I write in hope to capture my love..
Though words don't form easily..
If she reads them... she won't run..
I write for my friends..
To ease there pain.. tissue there tears..
Tell them I'm aware of the story... I listen...
I write to me.........................
In hopes I'll never forget... Who I am...
Releasement of the safeguards..
Closure.....
I write .....
SWANS
I saw a pond.. the fog had just lifted it's surface...
In the center were two swans....
Gracefully swimming along... as one ripple..
Turning with one movement...
I saw a pond.. and all it's beauty ..
and thought about u....
(To: Angie)
LOVE AS DEFINED BY ME:
And experience that you're never aware of..
Till you've fall'n into...
You never question it... and always take it for granted...
It's gone...
Then the true meaning emerges....
Till the next time...
PARTY IN MY ROOM
Enter my space.. hell no come on in...
Pop in uninvited... no inconvience what so ever...
No I'm not busy .. member I have no life....
So come on in.. ask the questions I answer'd mere minutes ago...
"Turn down your music", "could you do this?".....
Maybe a flashing neon sign would attract people off the street???
Hell the more the better...
Come on into my 10x20 hole...
They always say you resemble your parents.. hmmm interesting thought...
So the thought of me being lifeless now has mean'n...
Now get the fuck out!!!!!! (To: All those that open my door)
SINGLE STRIDE
I await..
Something, a reasoning
A mark or starting point to restart
Where it's only me who stands
To give myself a better chance
Of winning that race
Though it starts and finishes only steps in front of me
I'm sure I would trip on that first stride
And cut my knee
TAKEN FOR A RIDE
I'm disgusted by the way you interpret false claims
Speak of me, like I'll never hear them
Thinking that they won't hurt me
Though they do
I'm sure now more than ever
I was a notch placed on your stalk
Seems you neglect certain facts
I was alone, and confused
Like a con artist,
You took advantage of those findings
Maybe you cared, maybe you didn't
But I'll say to myself you did..
Avoiding the self mortification (To: Tara)
THE LAST OF LAST
You once said...
You are wonderful,
Loving,
Caring,
Insensitive,
Stubborn,
Asshole,
Slapped me across the face....
Then stormed out the door for your car...
You always said I never ran after you,
But that night I did, for 2 blocks in the snow
With no shoes...
And you never came home
(To: Teri)
ERROR
I'm questioning what I'm about..
Who is this person?
Like a spelling error that doesn't exist
I keep scanning it over and over
Wondering where that word is,
That baffles me
EDITING
I ponder if your happy...
And if this trip you took was worth it
It runs across my mind,
Rewinding it back to that one scene
Pausing it for that one second
When it seemed it was everlastingly sane
Though that next frame,
Explodes in my face
(To: Teri)
DREAMS
Life...
Is everything, for what it's worth
Take what you have and make it unique
Dream those dreams that nobody comprehends
Stand there, with your arms crossed
With the look of "This is me"
Take that step towards the edge and peer over
I'm sure what you'll see
Will answer all your doubts
With two deep breaths jump towards
What you know will come to be
Life ...
Is anything..... you can dream... and often more
(To: Sarah)
WALK ON
I wave.. you drive by...
Looking back.. but not noticing...
I walk on .. draging my feet in the dust...
The rain approaches.... I walk on...
Drenched and cold... My determination drives my tired body on....
You drive by.... then stop...
I walk on...
Looking back.. but not noticing... (To: Tara)
WORD SEARCH
I wish I could pick a word to describe you...
But I have yet to find a word that ties in all...
For you are everything and anything conceivable to me..
And then, even more... (To: Angie)
THINGS I MISS..................
I miss your voice.. the way it runs through my body like a raging river...
I miss your laughter.. and the way it puts a smile on my face...
I miss the anticipation of knowing I could talk to you.. whenever....
I miss the singing sessions...
I miss the emails.. the phone calls ...
I miss the best thing to ever happen to me...
I miss the things I haven't done yet but long to...
I miss this part of me that has left when you did...
I miss the words we made up...
I miss the flowers you use to pick.. the butterflies you use to chase...
I miss you... oh god... how i miss...
YOU!! (To: My True Love)
PLEASE
I call out to you .. my love...
In hopes that somehow you can hear my words...
I cry for you... I long for you...
Where are you????
Can you read my thoughts???
When is this pain going to end??? today?? soon??
Can you hear me????????
Please answer!!!
Please!!!
VULCHERS
Pick me apart...
Like a dead corps in the desert...
The birds of prey floak over my body...
Peck'n at my flesh...
There lay my sun bleached skeleton...
Left to make others wonder.. of who it was.. and of the fate....
The birds, wait in the shade full of me...
Awaiting the next to fall ... so they can ravage yet again..... (To: My friends)
BLUE
There you stood...
There I stood...
Alone at last.. with only time to burn...
All I could do was stare into your eyes...
Lost... in the deep blue'ness...
Like the clearest of waters.. they rushed over me...
Clensing my soul... drowning my heart...
Overflowing to the floor and drenching my clothes...
There I stood... There you stood...
And all was peacefull.. all was great....
Till I awoke.. and realized I left my window open... (To: Angie)
KISS
I blow you a kiss...
Blasting it away.. towards you.. thousands of miles it will travel..
Over water, mountains and rolling plains...
In hope that when it reaches you..
It knocks you off your feet... (To: Angie)
1 PERSON FUNERAL
I'm alive that I can tell...
Though in all I feel so dead...
Dead to society... dead to friends...
If only I could view my funeral...
To bid thanx to that one person who show'd up....
The priest...
REPETITION
The repeated phrase that holds my life...
8 weeks till life begins,, and the torchure
ends
ANYTHING
I'd give anything to hear your voice..
Anything to hear that laugh..
Those sweet words...
I'd give anything to hold you...
Anything to smell tangerines...
That sweet smell...
I'd give anything to kiss you...
Anything to taste those lips...
That sweet taste...
I'd give anything,,, anything (To: Angie)
TRADE
If anytime I've ask'd for any...
I ask of thee now...
Protect those that I hold dear...
Keep them safe from all they fear...
Lead them onto the path of right...
Brighten there way from the night...
Hold them in your heart...
Keep there souls true.. I trade mine for theres...
(To: all that know me)
1 WAY
My sholders bere the scares of many...
My back aches from the weight...
The voices of many call my name...
My voice now calls out...
And theres no shoulders or backs to bere them
BREAK FREE
I awoke to a newly known fact...
A girl of sweet true'ness...
Has touched me as none before...
Just as this feeling surfaced...
My love has gone...
Is it the absence that has show'n the truth?
Is life always going to only tease me?
Is this a sign?
Is there somebody, somewhere that can tell me?
I beg of thee!!!!
If I shed water further more.. my soul will surely float away...
Tell me of the future so that I can go on!!!
I plea of thee!!!!
Tempt me not with such temptations only to cast them away...
When I think of her.. does she know?
Can she tell of the love I portray?
Anyone? answer me!!!!
When I gaze above and pray... Who am I pray'n to?
Why do I pray to something that I don't believe in?
Have I become so desperate?
I yell to the world my love for her... strike me down if not told true...
Muster all your powers to keep me away.. your plan for demise ends here and now...
I break these chains of depression... and awaken to a new life...
A life with her...
THE RECONING
I fall to the rain drenched soil..
Flailing my fists in the air...
Screaming to all that pay ear...
To all that have hurt my love...
You best bring death with the blows..
Cause I stand infront of her...
And death is all that will get through me..
To get to her... (To: all the losers)
I JUST WANNA FLY!!!
Hope on in.. take a ride..
This moonlite trip... called my High...
Seems like drinking just ain't got the kick...
Alcohol and drugs .. hey that's the trick...
Things get'n ever so slow...
Looking at shit that starts to glow..
In the devils danced out trance...
Movements ever slighty change things get enhanced.
Body feels 800 times normal wieght..
Hands elongated and my legs start to shake...
Starring into space with a fucked up grin...
Sounds invade my head.. as it starts to spin...
Answering questions asked hours ago...
Music kicks in .. and join the flow...
The trance invades your all that is your space...
People stare at your blank'd out face...
Stage to kicks in hard .. need a chick..
There in the corner she sucks your dick...
People looking but you don't care...
Waving your arms to the music up in the air...
Night abrubtly comes to an end...
Find urself with that chick back at your den...
Well.. that's the story of my high...
Here take a hit.. wanna fly?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHa
If at sometime, someone could pinch me..
To remind myself this is real...
I'll watch the cards unfold..
To tell of the deal...
And rip everyone of them up...
Throwing them back in there faces..
All along laughing hystericlly ..
Like some pyscho freak...
Running down the street naked..
To say to the world .. yeah this is me...
THE LESSONS TAUGHT
Become what I'm not...
Do not what I've done...
Learn to open urself....
Never deni yourself.. of better things..
Don't walk away....
Distance yourself from that which haunts you...
Emotion is power...
Power is knowledge...
Be afraid not.. to trust...
Though keep your guard up...
Tis okay to cry...it shows no weakness..
Judge not of others.. for they judge not of you..
Know I love you... (To: The unborn)
Misterio
Ella vino a mí en mis sueños...
La mujer del misterio...
No puede ver que su cara...
como ella brilla intensamente ella hable no de su boca sino de su mente...
Como la alcanzo hacia fuera los dissapears...
Dejando solamente el slightest..
fragurence del.
behio de la mandarina...... (For: My better half)
